You want me to do WHAT?

...rawhide? Or something like that, the song goes? The last post I made here, we had just moved into our new home. Well, life has a funny way of working in 2 years. Not only lost the house when ex-roommate moved out, but lost my job as well. Now I'm living on the opposite side of town, and it's a weird feeling to be paying rent again instead of mortgage. I'm engaged, but the marriage date is "indefinite." Originally it was Sept 16th, but then he decided he didn't want to get married so soon. I was hurt initially, but actually this is a pretty good idea, because we've only lived together since July, so it's a huge learning curve on both our parts. He's 12 years younger than my 41, so he's learning how to be a Dad to 2 boys (R will be 15 at the end of this month, and J is 12 going on 21 lol) for the first time. Very steep learning curve. I'm also adjusting to having someone around the house other than myself and 2 kids. Sometimes I question